Shopping

Why do I hate shopping more than any other thing I can waste my time with? Long story short...I hate my body. I don't like myself. I wish I was thinner, prettier, tanner, etc. But I'll never be like them, because I'm me, not some air-brushed picture that is found over this mall I'm in right now. When I shop, I'm bombarded by sizes and ideals for what beautiful and Sexy should be. It's hard to accept myself. I'll never be a size zero...not again at least. It's not worth putting my health in jeopardy to please society. But since I suffer from an eating disorder called bulimia, I can't just ignore these stereotypes. I feel like I have to please everyone, so that puts my health at risk. It makes me hate my body even more, even though I used to be a well-rounded dancer who could give a fuck about what size I wore. Unfortunately, I have lost that confidence. And now I'm trying to be something I'm not. I feel I've let everyone down because of my disorder. I have to make up for it somehow, but HOW?

2015

Here's to the new year! Bare with me, I'm gonna be cliche.

I want, from here on out, to be more self-compassionate. Cause honestly, I haven't taken care of myself for the past six years. My eating disorder will NOT define me any more.

I want to go back to school, check things off of my bucket list, see more, read more, write more, etc. I want to live my life the way I want to. I don't want to be the "people pleaser" I've always been. I want to be me.

Easier said than done, right? But it'll be so worth it, I know. The work I will put in fir myself will be so amazing. For the first time in forever, I can do anything without sharing or feeling guilty.

This is my life.

2013 sucked, and the last 5 years before that. But I'm leaving the past behind, and keep moving forward. I've just gotta LET IT GO!!!!!

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Sorry, got off topic for a second. Oh well...

2015 is going to rock! I just know it!!

Get to Know the Real Me

So, who am I? Well, I'm just like a lot of you. I'm into reading anything I can get my hands on. This includes what's published and what's on FanFiction.net…yeah, if you visit me on that site, I have favorited and followed a ton of stories because they are just that good. Anyway, back on subject. I was a dancer, and now I'm not. I miss it every day. I'm starting this new blog in the hopes that one day, people may actually read this and or comment to let me know that they actually read something I wrote. I am addicted to Pinterest, Tumblr, and YouTube. You can follow me through my Google+ account or here, which is connected, so that makes it very convenient for you and me. Also, I'm 22 years old with no degree trying to get back into college. I want to major in History so I can teach and possibly do other things with it. With history comes lots of research, reading, writing, exploring, which are all things I love and do on a regular basis. I'm always reading…you can follow me on Goodreads too to see what I have, currently, and want to read. Right now, I'm reading Dracula and Intuitive Eating. Kinda funny I'm reading a classic and self-improvement book at the same time, but hey! I do what I want! Sorry, I've been LOKI'D ehehehehe…yeah, as you can tell, I'm a huge fangirl and have many ships in many fandoms like the Avengers, Disney, Dreamworks, Doctor Who, Sherlock, etc. we'll be here all day with me ranting about these incredible fandoms. So, like I said, this is my blog. You can comment below on anything you want to ask and I can answer in my next post. Or you can just say hi! I get very lonely, and social media helps me get over that. Thanks for visiting!

Introduction

Hey everyone! Welcome to my blog! Here you will find me talking about anything and everything you can think of! For those of you who follow me on other social media sites like Tumblr, Pinterest, and YouTube, well, you have a pretty good idea of what I'm all about! I hope you will find this blog interesting and something you follow and enjoy reading. Thanks for visiting!